Hi folks.

It’s been quite a while before I’ve dumped my random thoughts here, but I thought I’d do that rather than dump a whole lot of garbage on Mastodon. Don’t worry, you can thank me later.

Right now, I’m sick at home with a chest infection which I haven’t had for a very long time. I’m not sure what caused it, but I am pretty miserable. Regrettably, I’ve had to miss a few days of work to recover, but hopefully I’ll feel better soon. I’ve got a few weeks of annual leave that I need to take in a couple of months and need that couple of hours per paycheque so I can get paid for all of it. Saving anything (including money) has been a challenge lately.

Our new house build is coming along nicely. The exterior is just about done and the builders are starting to put up the dry wall inside. The inside still looks unimpressive, but it’s getting there. I am hoping it will be done mid-year. I’m getting tired of paying rent. I am going to miss my place close to the beach and the city, but kind of tired of having to listen to the traffic all the time. The air is probably not that great for me too. Air purifiers can only do so much, yeah?

Work is work. I don’t hate my job, but I’m also not that enthusiastic to go in when I don’t know what area I am working in. My job requires me to work in various sectors with various specialisations and it would be nice not to have that “jack-of-all-trades, but master of none” feeling I constantly have. At the end of the year, I’ll hopefully be able to alleviate some of that unknowing feeling.

The husband’s job search hasn’t really landed him any leads so he’s decided that he’s going to try to get a promotion at the place he works (and I used to work). Again, that place is about 4 hours away, one-way, from where I’m living now. It’s a good pay rise and probably a good option until something is available around where we’ll be moving. I’m not overly enthusiastic about it because we haven’t really lived together about half the time we’ve been married, but as long as it’s temporary, I guess I’m okay.

It also seems like the years are just passing by and I’m having those mid-life crisis thoughts. No, I don’t need a new car or anything, but I feel like I probably shouldn’t have wasted most of my life being lazy. I’m really feeling aged now and feel like there is so much more I could be doing, you know, like travelling and stuff. I admit that I didn’t work so hard earlier in my life and I wish I would have. I kind of thought that my boyish good looks would get me by, but once you hit a certain age in the gay world, that doesn’t work anymore.

If you’re a young gay guy who thinks they can sweet talk people, go to the gym every day, and not work hard, you’re going to be paying for it later. I mean, yeah, some people have the luxury of having this last a long time, but it doesn’t last. I’m actually amazed that someone wanted to marry me when I was in my late 30s. 😉 I’m not all bad, but charm and good looks aren’t on my side anymore.

What’s happening that’s good? That’s a tough one right now. Other than feeling like total garbage right now, things could be worse. The summer hasn’t been too bad. Still have a job. Red (my dachshund) is doing okay though getting a bit chubby. I’ll be finishing up my last bit of study this year which will be GREAT and well, I’m okay. It may sound depressing, but I’m okay.

That’s the update for now. I hope you and everybody you care about is doing well. 🙂